Relay for Life

After the Faire

Every year when I design a Fantasy Faire sim I write about it. Usually during the weeks while it is going or shortly after at the end. A wrap up sort of post explaining what I was doing and why. Each year it is something of am emotional journey that I let everyone in on.

Last year was hard. Last year was the year for my Mother.

This year I think is even harder. This year was the year that was supposed to be for me.

The concept was supposed to be a reawakening. A coming back to life. A finding myself again. This past year since my mother passed it’s been rough.

So I got with Elizabeth and we talked, I had mentioned how much I had enjoyed doing my first sim. The elves up in the trees but I was thinking of redefining them. Instead of the cold and frozen realm they had inhabited I was going to put them in a more spring like thing. The cousins so to speak of the others. Living further south and it was going to be colorful, full of life, over a mystical sort of swampy terrain with magic everywhere.  It was going to be a project where I would be coming back to life alongside it. A cross over. It was supposed to be grande in scale and design. Sort of a way for me to say, “I’m back.” after feeling like I have been away. I tend to use my builds to convey something. She loved the idea.

That was the plan. And boy did it go sideways.

What Fairelanders saw and what was intended were two very different things. I had people asking me throughout the Faire what the inspiration was, or the reasons for different things was. Why it had different styles of buildings and all. Sometimes I answered, sometimes I didn’t. Sometimes I couldn’t, I just didn’t have one for them.

So I was working on it, plugging away but this year it was really tough to focus. I’ll admit since my mother passed I’ve been struggling pretty hardcore, and while you all don’t need to hear the gory details it was often a get through one day at a time sort of thing. I knew before my mother was gone that when she died it would shatter me and I wasn’t wrong. It did. In more ways than one.

The sim was moving slow, I was having a hard time seeing it. When I get a build in my head I ‘see’ it. It has a life, I breathe life into it with these sort of strange half imagined feelings or visuals… I just couldn’t find it. So it was going slow and I started to worry that I had chosen the wrong thing to focus on. That I needed to find something else because focusing on my stuff was just not working.

Then I fell.  I had an unfortunate run in with a mop bucket. The bucket won.

I end up getting a wound on my leg and it got infected. All of a sudden not only was I having a hard time with the sim, now I couldn’t really sit at my desk. It hurt, I couldn’t put my leg up the way I needed to, I couldn’t sit for very long getting squirmy unable to ignore the pain or discomfort, and it just would not heal. And I was so tired, sick feeling, the infection just wearing me out. It got so bad that I was almost admitted to the hospital because of it. I was a bit scared here as you can imagine.

With the Faire not that far away, a lot still needing to be done and then these things I end up contacting Elizabeth to say I might not be able to complete it. We talked and she said to let her know after that weekend because that was when I was supposed to go into the hospital. Long story short I didn’t go in and decided to try to continue, to complete it. I know no one would have blamed me for giving it up so I could take care of myself but I didn’t want to let it go. Us world builders can be a stubborn group.

Pools of Ethuil BenchSo slowly I was getting better and would sometimes get a little message or IM or something from someone saying they heard I was sick and hoping I’d be ok. Of course I had only told Elizabeth what was going on so… *clears her throat tapping her fingers on the keyboard* yea it was a bit startling when that would happen. Since even though I am writing all this and I’m pretty open I also am VERY private and don’t like to let people know these things to begin with. To even tell her was a big deal. Well it wasn’t the end, not by a long shot.

As I continued I realized that I just couldn’t do what I wanted to do, that the concept was going to have to change dramatically.  I couldn’t put in what needed to be done to do what I had planned on so the elves who were supposed to be up in the trees all of a sudden are going to reside on the ground. I had not wanted to give up on the original partly because it had already been advertised so now the website had this description that just would not fit. But I had to accept that I just couldn’t do it. Hard for me. Hard to let it go.

Then it got worse.

As the dates for set up closed in and I was frantically trying to work on this, to stay up… I realized that I was going to need help.

*winces*

Ms. Control Freak. Ms. No one is going to touch my build or understand it like I do. Ms. Never ever ever ask for help.

Again I contacted Elizabeth to tell her I might actually need help from some of the other world builders to fill it in. I had decided to do these massive buildings that were going to be decent but the rest I just wasn’t sure I could do. I was going to make a sort of formal garden concept with a wild part below.  The main store being a temple that oversaw the magic somehow, the featured stores the upper crust of elves living near the temple and the ones below the workers, the ones who tended the gardens and kept the magic alive. It was the best I could come up with.

You have no idea how very humbling it was for me to go and tell Elizabeth I might need help from other builders, to even consider it. I have never done that, most of the time fighting and pushing through to do it myself but this was too big. The faire too important, I had to put me aside and that was not easy.

As it turns out I didn’t use their help even though I’m sure they could have done some wondrous things.

Instead I got some help from someplace else. People who were around the Faire this year would recognize her, the little pink dinkie kitty who flew around in her balloon causing chaos and munching on waffles. She offered to help knowing how much I was struggling and at first I didn’t accept it. I don’t like accepting help but then I did. I decided to let her in. So I arranged it and she came in to help me fill it in, to help build the little spots I couldn’t take the time to while I worked on the larger buildings and areas. So while I was pushing through to finish hunt gifts, items to sell for RFL, the buildings, the whole giant project there she was like a little gardener bringing to life the smaller spots. Helping to breathe life into the Faire as we brought it forward from the mists for you all to enjoy. Towards the end she asked what she could do or not do after we had gotten some done. She knew what a control freak I am over my builds. I was so tired, far more exhausted than I let on…. she knew the direction I was going in and I said. “go ahead, play. Build.” she thought I had somehow lost my mind and asked me again because she didn’t believe me, and again I said.

“Play… have fun. Build whatever you like, I trust you and… ” adding as an afterthought or smart ass comment, “anything I really can’t deal with I’ll return, as long as you can live with that and not take it personally…. go. Enjoy.”

She was of course dumbfounded, squealed with delight, off she went and I went to bed to sleep. In the morning I went to look at the sim to see what she had done. With a smile I wandered the space. I didn’t return one prim.Pools of Ethuil Dedication

If it hadn’t been for her my sim would have been a lot more empty. A lot more dead and a lot less inviting. The little benches, the little spots… most of them were her contributions. I would watch people reclining, relaxing and enjoying the sim often around the little spots she created. Sure… the temple was magnificent. I love it. But that building by itself wouldn’t have carried the sim and without her it would not have had its life.

One of the things she created was this little garden in one of the out of the way spots. It was full of color and mushrooms.  Because I had said I wanted mushrooms but didn’t have time to make any new ones. With the biggest heart she made a little easel with my picture on it and inserted a little notecard expressing a dedication to me, to my work, to my struggle, and how I never ask for anything. It was the sweetest most loving thing anyone has done for me in my Second Life. Whether she knew it or not through the Faire I would go visit that little spot to sit and I probably didn’t let her know how much it meant to me. I’m bad at these things.

So this years Faire sim which was meant to be about me and waking up from the long sleep really end up not being about me at all. Not in the way I thought it would. It became a lesson in humility, a lesson in letting go, a lesson in letting our loved ones help us when we need it the most. It became about community, love, hardship and pulling through. I am forever changed because of this experience and for the better I think.

So this year I am dedicating this experience to my Faire family. The people who each year come together to do this but more importantly I am dedicating this to the wee little pink kitty cat. Her name is Carmella, and if you see her jetting around in a balloon, on a motorbike or just poking at people with her stabby stick make sure you stop and dance with her for awhile. She is always up for a good dance.

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It took me awhile to find the way to write this. Between recovering from the Faire, other events and really just unable to find the words. But here they are, until next year.

 

 

 

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Soooo…. how’re you all doing?

It’s busy as usual around my place. Even when I say I’m not doing as much I still am which is kind of funny. Most people who know me think that I’m rather on the insane side. I swear, I’m slowing down and not working as much but they usually do one of those… ‘yea yea… sure.’

I don’t know why they’d think that. *blink blink*

This post will be a bit of a round up of newness from the beginning of this month.

Firstly we have We <3 RP.

Knitting and Sewing Pillow Set TXTAwesomeness abounds with some revisted favorites… some sewing fun.  I get a lot of feedback that my sets and different things like this are really the favorites from my store so we’re going with it with a little more gusto lately getting back to my roots… plus the things I enjoy rather than trying to accommodate for every one else. yay me!

There are two versions as there was before.  A stool and a pillow set.  Obviously the main difference is where you’re sitting. The stool is very cute, has a lot of options to change the color of the cushion and a lot of things to do.

I amp’d up the animations.  You can sew, embroider, sit, relax, have a cup of Knitting and Sewing Stool Set TXTcocoa or some tea.  There’s crocheting, knitting… it even has a few sits in it for the male types if they feel like taking a load off.  See I did try to think of everything, and I suppose you know… guys did sometimes have to sew.  Even if it might have been under duress it DID happen. Along with the cute lil stool you get rugs… two of em, braided and woven.  Then there’s some balls of yarn, a basket with sewing and knitting things in it.  A nice lil set. Use parts or the whole thing all weighing in at 1 to 2 LI.

Then there’s the pillow… you get a slightly modified version of the accessories, the quilt is shaded a lil different under the basket lol but you get the same rugs, balls of yarn and all… instead of the stool you get a…. well pillow.  Texture change for it too though not as many colors.  There are more sits and kneels sort of thing for the pillow so that it can be used for the slave types that need to do chores.  It has less crafty things… sewing, knitting and embroidery and sorry… no cocoa. I suppose I could have dug through and found the crosslegged one I have but I didn’t.

Each of them are out at display for We <3 RP, and each of them are at a 30% discount.

Take a taxi to get there

The second event thing is Twisted Summer RFL sort of benefit.  The people for Twisted hunt do a thing where they raise money for RFL during the summer, Cool right?Av Attach - Sweeping the Floors

Well the stuff I have for over there is a couple of cool things… It was Twisted Fairytales and while I didn’t twist it up too much I created a few pieces.  First since it always seems like there’s a lot of sweeping going on in stories from Cinderella to many other characters I did an av attach broom.  Chore-worthy something you wear and work anywhere. You know how it goes and how I’ve made these things… they’re usually favorites for people that like to be able to do things on their own.

It has 5 animations in it.  Sweeping for men and women, you click it to bring up a menu after wearing it and choose how you want to be. Woot.

Huntsman Camp SetSecondly I revamped up something I made awhile back but has not been available in the store… a camp set, this one is meant for huntsman or miscreants…. either way it works or for whoever. It’s got some good pieces and a real nice defensive perimeter LOL

Both sets are 100% donation to RFL during the event, I added some other vendors with donation set to RFL as well like I usually do.

TP me please, they says as they clicks the lil line in the text.

There’s also a freebie, a 100% freebie at the landing of the main store. But you have to find it. hehehe

I decided to get into a hunt, I know I haven’t been much lately but on occasion and I got to thinking… why not.  I mean really, this is a good way to get people around, and to give them something to do along with having a lil something to go home with.

It’s the Silk Road Hunt, so I made up a simple thing.

Spice baskets meant for a merchant but anyone could use them.

Spice Merchant Baskets - Hunt Gift

If you want them you need to come to the MAIN STORE, and hunt around the landing for the lil pergola thingie, click it and be rewarded. It’s not outside of 30 meters so don’t want too far.

That be about it for now… hope you’re having a great week.

Take care.

 

 

 

 

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So… So very late

So late in making some announcements. It’s terrible. I have to keep on top of these better don’t you think? Maybe not always blog posts but at least the ones in world. Ok, so… here’s the thing. I have a lot of things going on right now that you might not imagine.

Firstly! ROMP!  It’s been going on since the 12th and will be ending this week!!!!  Omg! I can’t believe I haven’t temped you with this yet…. I am so so very sorry, from the bottom of my heart.  Though you’re going to despise the next bit.  This time for ROMP I did a………. *lowers her voice.* gacha.

I know! Deplorable things that eat at your lindens. They’re evil.  Evil I tell you.

Anyhow… It’s a cool set.

Bindings Too GachaDo you remember that one Gacha I did awhile back, the Sleek Bindings one? Well this one kinda goes along with it.  Same wood tones for the most part, metal and all… So if you have pieces of that you can have pieces of this too to go along with it. Now the other parts… lets see.  It’s an extensive lil set with various cages firstly. A small cramped cage, the person stuck in this bad boy is curled up in a ball and only has enough room to wiggle just ever so slightly. Precious.  Then there’s a kennel cage. Rather plain, some straw in the bottom along with an old blanket.  This has a bunch of animations in it… 31 to be exact. So since we’re talking about commons I’ll stick to those for now.

Some of the other commons are a wall decor thing, I love it actually, looks cool.  Some candles, on stands and a cluster, rug to decorate with 5 different furry options, some toys to decorate. Yanno, crops, cuffs and restraints. A few other lil decor items like that and a set of feed bowls. The feed bowls have 5 animations and then there is a bowl you wear as an av attachment that a submissive can feed themselves with. A really nice lil blocky sort of seat is also available as a common with 9 animations in it.

So… if those are just the commons then the RARES! OOooo…. yea… a different version of the seat with some FemDom and some MaleDom sorts of animation sets in it.  Bondage for the Mistress to be placing her poor boy in such a tricky spot taking advantage of him… and some fun things for the guy to have some fun with his girl.  Mhmm.. I like it.  Then then the last but certainly not least piece is the draped decorated kennel cage. Plush inside with a mattress and pillow for a precious pet or high slave to recline in.  The drape sweeps along the back and has three fabrics to choose from to accent the piece.  Not only that is has… 56(!) animations in it.  Reclining, being lazy, being flirty… self pleasure, and much much more.

All packed in a gacha.  Now… I am going to allow for trading in to have no transfer versions for anyone who wants them. Yepp Yepp… just send in a folder the ones you have to trade in, and a NC outlining them… leave an offline so I’m looking for it and I’ll give you no transfer versions of any of the ones you win.

Get yerself to ROMP!! And create a scene

Leafy Maple TreesWhat else… Home and Garden Expo benefiting RFL is going on strong!! I have been still getting my RL in order and you know it’s going to sound dramatic but you know how it is when you think one thing is finally getting settled then ANOTHER thing happens?  I swear I live in a freekin soap opera. I mean really, just how much shit can get dumped on a person yea?

But anyhow… awesome awesome event.  Lots of really great things and tons of shopping.  I have a few things in vendors there for donation that I’ve had around, there’s a hunt item even with gift things in it.  The couple of items I have work together fairly well. A set of trees and a gazebo thing.  I was going for something different but this is what I got and it isn’t half bad probably. The trees are something I’ve fiddled with on and off.  They have similar trunks to ones I’ve done before but the leaves are maple leaves… colored a lil differently.  They look good and I like them.  Buying these while the Home and Garden Expo is going gives 100% donation to RFL.

The other item that goes along with it and is in a scene over on Hope 8 is a gazebo or build of sorts. It’s meant to look like it’s Well of Kayleighbeen there for awhile.  Not exactly ruins but not new either with an aged sort of feel to it. I’m not sure if I got it across so you’d have to tell me.  What do you think hmm? I really don’t think the picture does it justice.  I mean I really don’t, it’s too sterile looking lol.  However it was all I could get to come up with ok.  It’s a fairly decent sized build, and around 25 LI.  So yea you have that but nestled in amongst trees and things it looks pretty good.  I guess I have visions of an old well or something in the woods… Celtic or something maybe… hidden and forgotten except for the locals who know that it is there and the story behind it. Visiting it on occasion to remember.

Yea I know, I like stories… love them to be honest, and love to give character to my home… my builds… my store… wherever you might find me.

100% donation to RFL for this lil beast too… so travel to HOPE 8 and my display which just so happens to span over two sides of the path.  May 19th – June 4th

>> travel with me to the isles of hope <<

So what’s next?  The Unmasking a Cure Medieval faire.  I have a booth here with some already made up product for donation to RFL.  So you should go here too!! Lots of lovely vendors putting their things out there for a good cause.  It’s my second or third year doing it… I can’t remember really but I’ve done it more than once at least lol

So go yonder as well!! For info::  Unmasking A Cure Medieval Faire RFL of SL

<< To TP! >>

I just really gotta keep on top of these things. Seriously.

I’m going to close this for now. Uhhuh. Maybe do a 25L Tues. post.

 

 

 

 

 

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The Story of Chaddul Ro

So the Faire is wrapping up for 2017.  It will be open to the public from what I understand through May 4th.  If you would like to go…. take a taxi to my sim >>>> Chaddul Ro <<<<

So much has happened and I know I have been very quiet.  There have been a lot of reasons for this… some… very personal and some just the whirlwind of creating for the faire with all of the things to do.

This year saying good bye is even harder than usual… Unfortunately I can’t be here like I usually am due to some real life obligations that just can’t wait.  I won’t be able to be here when the Fairelands disappear into the mist again.  I won’t be able to be here when the sims are taken offline like I usually am.

Saying good-bye will have to be a little bit different.  I wish I could be here.

This year creating for Fantasy Faire was more personal than ever.  They haven’t posted my interview yet… a blurb of it for part of the dedication, and honestly I don’t know when or if they will post the rest of it.  It is very long winded, and personal.

You guys… you’re going to get something no one else ever will…. a piece of Chaddul Ro.  A part of the very heart of the sim, there were two integral pieces to what it represented.  The beacon… the towers with the flames and then the sacred space. A memorial/remembrance area on the sim.

The beacon was sold at auction.

The alter will not be sold.

It will not be made available except for when I ever decide to make it that way.

Right now… it is available to you.  My group members and only my group members.

Members of the in world store group will be allowed to have a smaller version that has been made into a personal sized meditation space.

Chaddul Ro Personal Alter Space - Group OnlyA

Parts of it are very high land impact.  I didn’t really make this worrying about that.  I wanted it to have certain elements so it has those elements.  You can edit or leave off certain parts if you like and never use them or use all of it…

A special group only vendor will be placed at the landing near the Fantasy Faire Sign that you can access. Make your group active, pay 1L that will be refunded and get it. I’ll leave it up until I return from my business in real life on the 8th.

I am going to post the story, the inspiration and reasons behind Chaddul Ro here on my personal store blog.  It will also be posted I believe on the https://fantasyfairesl.wordpress.com/ sponsors interviews. There is more to the interview but this is the bulk of it… if you are curious, read ahead.

You might want to get some kleenex though… I have had more than one person who has pre-read it as I was editing tell me that I suck.

How was Chaddul Ro born? What inspired it, what is its story?

** warning label attached** Long text ahead.

I have been asked how much of my story am I going to share this year, and I couldn’t figure out how to answer that. There is the faire answer, the concept and the idea of the orcs and then there is the personal answer. What do we share? I have talked about this with a few people and one of my favorite responses to it was… “*f* it, say it, do it, the people who get it will, the people who don’t never will.”

Whenever I do one of these sims I put a reason or dedication to it. From specific family members to concepts or ideas… feelings.

The orcs of Chaddul Ro!  Chaddul Ro is the name of the outpost, the orcs are part of a tribe called the Chal Khizzur. I got a little bit fancier this time around creating something of a persona that I would draw upon as I created it.  These orcs are fiercely protective and strong. The whole concept was about strength.

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RFL Weekend — A Wish for Life

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A few years back I did a RFL sim on the track for RFL weekend.  Every year they ask me if I can do another one and most of the time I’m busy.  This year I decided to fit one in though things got a bit hard for awhile, I wasn’t sure I’d be able to.  Life has been so difficult for me this year getting time in world.

They gave me the region called Life on the track.

It’s rather fitting technically because I had been mulling over a concept when I was asked to do the sim that really sort of suited that.

Have you ever read the story of Sadako?  She was a young Japanese girl who died in the 1950’s from leukemia, it was a story I read when I was young and in school.  Something that stuck with me, I re-read it before doing this sim partly because when I was asked that was one of the first things that popped into my head.  Sadako and the Thousand Paper Cranes.  When I read it I of course learned how to fold them and used to often.  I loved the little things.  The story itself centers around this little girl who gets sick and slowly dies. One day while in the hospital her best friend came to visit her and said she had a solution.  Her friend brought paper and scissors and showed her how to fold a paper crane. Sadako asked how this would help to which her friend reminded her of an old story… The crane was supposed to live a thousand years, and if a sick person folds one thousand paper cranes the gods will grant their wish making them healthy again.

Her friend gave her the wish of life creating for her the first of her paper cranes and with her friends help learned to fold them and until she died it was her goal to continue.  Friends, family, nurses… everyone saved pieces of paper to bring to Sadako so that she could try to fold her cranes.  Her brother hung them from the ceiling and she was surrounded by them as she slowly worked on them throughout her illness.  With each crane she made her wish.. “I wish I’d get better…”

“Out of colored paper, cranes
come flying into
our house”

This once vibrant little girl who only wanted to be able to run was stricken with something so terrible… it always stuck with me and as her mother whispered softly “Oh flock of heavenly cranes, Cover my child with your wings.” swinging over her head within the hospital it reminds me of how often cancer in its varying forms strikes for whatever reason.  In this instance war, the dropping of the atomic bomb… just terrible war created a whole generations afflicted by the cruelty of man.  Everyday people are stricken, suffer and are in pain all hoping and wishing only to get better.

That is the inspiration for this sim.  A quiet, peaceful place of reflection.  Japanese inspired garden with water, lilies, a gazebo and trees… Maples and things all sweeping around a wood path…. and if you look within the water… paper cranes floating.

The paper cranes… wishes.  Wishes from me to those who traverse the path, to those who suffer, to everyone who is afflicted or in pain.

I wish that you could get better, and I will always continually be folding my paper cranes through the span of my life for those like Sadako, a hope… a wish… a dream that those vibrant little girls who just want to run to be safe from the pain.

Come RFL this weekend with me, and make a wish.

 Visit RFL Region Life

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