I am if nothing but something of a perfectionist in some things, trying to think up everything that I might need to do or things that I should be doing but not always quite getting there. Or the little touches that make a build good, I can go on and on over them… making it much more difficult than it needs to be. Well, I decided to just batten down the hatches and get it done. So we’re open!
The Roawenwood is officially opened up again (though only to in world group members the 25th & 26th – the rest of you have to wait until Friday haha!), the main store on the Five Blades sim has been totally redesigned and ON the GROUND! Oh… I’ve been up in the sky in boxes and things for far too long, it isn’t something I recommend unless you have something you really like to be honest. But we’re back, the collective we you know… anyhow… I digress. This build is something rather personal. Here’s where I slow down a little bit and if you’ll come with me for a small journey of exploration as I let you in on a few secrets.
Yes. This is a store.
Yes. It is meant to be shopped and yes it is a business.
But then again…. it’s not.
The store is made up of several main areas, shopping areas. Two bazaar types with booths of a sort, an area where clothing, accessory stuff is and then a more role-play, landscaping, prefabs type of area. When you drop in you will be faced with the middle basically. The heart of the store, within its heart there is magic, hope, and a quiet place of solitude if you like. There are paths circling and moving through each area so that you can seamlessly move through the store, hopefully not getting too lost in the process since it is big.
Big for a reason, one I like to breathe, two… because I think wandering, slowing down and taking a moment can be beneficial. Plus, it can take up a lot of space trying to display furniture builds among other things and I like to stage everything nicely.
When I started trying to build my place, my space which is actually over a year now and I never would have thought it would take so long. I wanted something that was “my world”. I wanted my furniture, my stuff everything to be surrounded by… well.. me. I didn’t want to settle for a box with rows of display spaces. I didn’t want to be just another store, or something. I wanted to create something where when you stepped inside you did a quick… “whoa, is this a store?” and get caught up in it for a moment. I’m not saying it had to be a jaw dropping stunning build, yea no, not that. I wanted to evoke a feeling… so I struggled trying to figure out how to balance this want and the business side when it seemed like from the landscape of business in SL people didn’t want what I had to offer in that regard anymore. They wanted quick easy shopping, going to events, who cares about a main store, waste of time, “I just want all my creators in one place so I can go there then go home.” ” What can I buy, who can I buy it from, can I cam shop from the sim next door, don’t make it too laggy, don’t make it too ornate, I just want… want… want…” Exploring, wandering, feeling at home… they had no business in business. At least, that’s how it felt. I felt old, out of time, from a past era of builders and SL that was trying to keep up with the new faster paced and newly meshed version of SL. So I struggled, wondering where I fit, if I fit. Did I want to become something else, not really and it depressed me mightily feeling like if I did not conform to what I thought was the new standard of production almost like it had become a line job at a factory churning out new items just to make them then I might be left behind because to be honest I love to create. I share bits and pieces of me, my passions, my vision, my ideas. It’s all so much fun for me and it felt like it was dying so slowly. Instead of an idea inspired by a vision or something I wanted to give, to help other people create their world it was becoming like an assembly line. Even people around me could see it. Concerned friends and family members wondering where the spark had gone, worried trying to kick me in the backside afraid that I was giving up. I’ll be honest here too. I was. I was giving up. Tired, burned out, and dissatisfied with my creations often. Feeling like something was missing, feeling like it was a real job and by real job I mean the sort where you put on your suit in the morning or your work clothes heave a sigh and wince, “well I’m off to work.” To settle in for the day at a dry dead cubicle to make something because it was expected, and I was in an event or something. I very nearly quietly closed. There were steps made to, you could see it if you knew me… It almost all came to an end, sick to my stomach and sneering not wanting to do it anymore but very sad that it might be. I felt like I was losing a part of myself and that my home… was slowly withering.
All very dramatic isn’t it? I never said I couldn’t be dramatic.
It took a long while for me to kind of come to grips with what it was I wanted vs what I thought was wanted. And while I know you all aren’t probably _that_ interested in this side of the journey I wanted to do what I tend to do which is share because now… reopening, you get to see that I made up my mind and I like what I have found.
SL is SL just like everywhere else, business will change, adapt and then change again. I have always been good at adapting changing chameleon like to make up for the new things coming over the past 10 years. It’s always a challenge because technology throws a lot at you within short periods of time so that has been a lot of adapting but I draw the line somewhere. Here.. maybe it’s because I’ve done this so long but there are parts that just need to be out there and well, those who like what I see… my vision, of a peaceful place. A place to not only explore but to share. Little spots to pause a moment and breathe. It’s not all supposed to be rushing around, it isn’t all supposed to be instant gratification, sometimes… it is the pausing. Slowing down, enjoying what we see in front of us, taking the time to bring a friend along…. So yes, my place is a shopping place but it is also something that I share with you. Forests and groves, fairies and magic. Hope, and a love for the path we take not just the destination. I wanted to bring a little bit of magic into everyone’s lives so that is what I am doing or at least that is my intent. No one can take that away from me unless I let them.
If you explore all the little nooks and crannies you will find bits of me. Statues and displays of flowers, things I enjoy or precious moments. You’ll find tributes to loved ones and momentos of events, faires, RFL, and gifts given to me by friends. You will find my love of magic, my love of nature, tranquility and of life. Each corner has areas that have nothing to do with shopping and there’s a lot of little areas mixed in between. Even the gacha redemption spot has little things… pieces and each area I can imagine spending time with loved ones. So while you explore Roawenwood if you really pay attention and take a peek you will see a large part of me from spiritual to mundane to the physical, it might as well be an open book but then that would be too easy.
Enjoy my store.
Enjoy the experience.
And welcome back to the Roawenwood.